As I was logging in to the site and typed in my password the prompt says “remember me” and I thought… maybe they won’t. My lack of voice on this blog has not been out of boredom or lack of passion or love for youth pastor’s wives. I still think of you all and pray often. I have about 30 topics, literally, to journal/post/blog/discuss with you all. My journey with God has been such an interesting one in this season of my life. May be? my kids, may be my age,? may be the mark of where we are in ministry I don’t know. But from the start of it all on our amazing summer vacation up until now I have been really listening to God’s voice probably for the first time in my life. And now feel the freedom and am figuring out the words to talk about it with you all. I haven’t learned anything earth shattering or really anything I didn’t know before, but living with my heart more than just going through the motions.
I have had such an “empty tank” (sorry for the super Christian-y cliche) and didn’t stop to do anything about it. I continued to serve out of an my emptiness and liked it. It actually started to feel normal. But that’s not what God wanted from me or wanted for me I should say. I’m sure we’ve all been through a season like this. If not, get ready for one. So, I’ve felt “benched” for a bit…. but now feel truly ready to get back to the game.
I bet a few of you are going through a season similar right now either with family, or personally, or in ministry, feeling “benched”. It’s a confusing place to be. I know my passion hadn’t changed and I didn’t feel like God was saying “STOP talking to these wives”, just a time-out for a little bit to catch my breath and refocus.
I’m excited to continue to listen and see where God takes this ministry, I think its gonna be good.